And that was true to my e-books.
View 1- The Optimist- I will keep going until I make it because I know I am going to get there.
View 2- The Realist- I might have made it but can I keep the costs running up in the hope one something might happen.
View 3- The Pessimist- I was never going to get there and this was a futile experiment and a total waste of time and money.
My view is and has always been the second- if I doubted my ability to write a good story, it was more because I was unsure what people were likely to read, than a lack of imagination needed to write the story.
What has forced me to doubt myself is the total reader apathy, I know I am better than some of the writers out there, but because I don't write either fanfiction/zombies or cheap porn I have suffered.
When I did a few question and answer sessions for sites on Facebook, I got asked many times "What would I tell a new writer?"
From my experiences this year it varies from give up to get a degree, if you have a degree people take you seriously-if you don't have at least a BA, they think you are a moron.
I am not being cynical, I had that forced on me at every turn over the past two years, until I met my editor, Julia, who believed in me.