The last hurdle
I will not deny that if this does not work, I will not feel that the last ten years I think have been wasted, as I waited so long for this crumb of hope. Next year is not only pivotal for being my tenth year as a writer, friends tell me it can take ten years to get recognised as a writer, so here I am at the start of year 10.
This year is make or break for me http://alsdomain.weebly.com/at-the-blogstop/2018-is-make-or-break-year-for-me#.WkfGodVl_rc in so many other aspects, as my self-esteem hits new lows each month as my e-books fail to sell, despite many people saying they feel I am a bestseller in the world of Science Fiction because my series http://alsdomain.weebly.com/forgestriker---the-hit-series.html has sold over 800 e-books in four years. In the "real world" that equates to less than $1 a week, some bestseller.
If the book does not meet with approval, at least I did get a reply from somebody https://hereiamattheedgeblogspotcouk.wordpress.com/2017/12/13/better-than-a-no/ who took the time to read my email, rather than send a generic refusal letter that has no meaning.
I hope for the best https://disqus.com/home/discussion/channel-writingworld/will_my_dream_come_true_after_ten_years_of_waiting/, in the "real world" I stopped dreaming of being published other than self-publication years ago as I have not got the money for book promotion.