I wonder if I will ever (!) sell ten in a month.
I wonder if anybody reads what I write.
I wonder is it really worth going on, two years and still no nearer the 10 sales, if anything I am further away-with returned books.
I wonder if this latest course my friend and editor, Julia, has paid for will be of any use as no matter what I do, nothing appears to be working for me.
I wonder if I am good or have I been trying to live out a dream which fuelled my life for over 50 years and can't release the hopes, even though I know the dream won't turn into a reality for me.
One thing I don't wonder about is what I will, should I decide to stop writing-I have a PS3 and a few games, plus many and varied books to read.
If the success of authors taunts and haunts my days, I can always tell myself I tried.