New pages. This week I had considered opening some more pages. I had in mind a page called The Rescue Cats,which would have been about the funny adventures of our cats. I was also planning on doing a series on Johnny Cooper, the schoolboy character I created for The Peacock Writers charity books. And, I even thought about opening a new blog purely for my books. The key word here is THOUGHT, because I had no sooner had the idea than I classed the proposal as stupid.
Amazon. In retrospect joining Amazon wasn't as good a choice as I had imagined. I thought the coverage would help sell a few books, all it did was prove that coverage means nothing.
A novel approach. Over a year ago, some of my friends put the idea to me that they thought I should write a novel.
I hadn't thought about the idea at the time, most of my stories are short, and the wordage (40,000+) appeared beyond my range. However, with A Sailor's Love ending at 35,000 words, I think I could have done the novel.
What put me off? At the time of writing A Sailor's Love, I had just completed book 2 ofChronicles of Mark Johnson ( Wharfemere Finale'), and seen it have the same fate as the original; failure in a large scale.
I spent almost a year on and off on the book, and its failure drained me. When I finished ASL I had been working on the book for over 14 months, and the thought hit me, Why did I spend so much time on something which I will probably throw away? The time involved didn't equate to the pitiful amount I get for selling the work, and from there I went into a death spiral, to the point I am now.
I ate, and slept the characters I created -- as I usually do -- and to think all that love, and energy has gone to waste eats me up; another reason I struggle to find the urge to write.
Signed & numbered. I have a number of signed/signed & numbered books in my collection. I look at then and think It would be nice if one of my books had a lovely cover, not to try and help sales, just to please me. I see on line Limited Edition 1,500 copies to be sold World wide,and I think It would be nice if I could be that popular; then I take a breath and sigh Dream on, it won't happen, I'm lucky to sell 15 e-books, never mind books with nice covers.
Considering. Last night I seriously considered putting a book out, and paying for a nice cover; if only to say I had a nice cover on a story, but I discarded the idea almost as soon as I thought of it.
October. At the end of this month, other than The Peacock Writers charity group, and a few close friends; I will effectively be off line. I had the dream -- foolish, but it kept me going for 50 years -- people would be willing to pay a little to read what I wrote. Some dreams should stay dreams. I know I won't be missed, but out of politeness I thought I should warn you; when I go off line, you know why.