That feeling that nothing is going to happen.
Yes, I suffer greatly with enuii, and at the moment the feeling is overpowering.
I am between jobs on Upwork, and trying to get the urge to write.
The urge is hard to find, when you feel you're travelling in ever decreasing circles.
It is true, my rep as a ghostwriter is blooming - think - I see people with less items in their portfolios, and having passed fewer tests than me, and who charge more than me get jobs but I get overlooked.
While my rep is growing as a ghostwriter, my rep as a writer appears to be going downhill rapidly. I keep trying to sell in my name but I keep failing.
The circle of doom will repeat for the last time at the end of next month when I close the blog.
As my dear friend, Julia, would say You're heading for that dark place again. She as always is correct, but other than selling in my name, I don't see how I can turn the tide, and get my #motivation back.